("v")once u LOVE someone,tat person is forever a part of U("v")

2010-06-08T19:32:00.004+08:00

wah.. my blog so long no updates lo.. no time updates oso.. recently work work work.. den oso recently set up lion dance troupe with zhi wen and adrian.. it was so called a quite successful one.. but hope it continue to stay smoothly.. and oso with the help of our bros peng and pee ann. and oso xiao B, simon, poon, ah fat, pamela, jack, serene, simin, siyan, alan, sirkiat etc etc and huang shi fu.. TGT we make the lion troupe a SUCCESS one..

2010-03-09T18:49:00.002+08:00

So long no updates.. been busy for everything.. will not be blogging often.. this post i will cut it short.. cos dono wad to say and dono wad to blog.. a loads of thing been happening ard me.. good ones and bad ones.. but finally something is over rite now.. i hope i can pick myself, my normal self up again.. not to be soft hearted the nx time.. and oso wish her all the best.. now the time to really go out the world to earn $$ and not still day dreaming.. i think tat all i hav to say.. cos say more oso no use.. waste my energy and strength to type.. waste electricity oso.. my bros really there for me when some of the things happen.. thanks.. but i will not go bother u all abt anything cos i know u all hav ya own probs too.. i will rather keep everything to myself again.. hais.. dono i type all this got typo error a not.. i think some of the sentence got no logic bah.. cos wad i type is jus wad i thnik den type.. get it? yes? no ? nvm.. not a issue.. lastly.. june faster faster come come.. cant wait for my bonus.. ok that it............................... bye bye..

2010-01-20T18:26:00.004+08:00

A brand new year and a brand new me!! =D

been busy abt my work.. schedule is very pack.. cant even take a mc or a day off.. but who cares.. i already apply for 17,18,19 feb on leave lo... had been tiring for days cos of some probs i'm facing.. but after some serious thought.. i decided to stay on my career and studies and don go think too much abt other things.. well.. as i said eariler i gg to be busy cos will be working night shift during weekends.. so means i hav no time to go out play and chill lo.. gotta miss my bros, cousin and frens.. miss my army bros oso.. but will be meeting them after cny.. looking forward to cny but not valentines' day.. cos no valentine!! -.- well.. maybe is heaven's will.. like wad my manager had said, normally those working in my department de guys wont get marry de.. cos of our work is 24/7, any time any where will be recall back for work.. unless there is a miracle.. hmm.. i don believe much in miracle cos it doesnt happen to me b4 in my 23 yrs of life whenever i wish or hope for a miracle.. so i think my love life jiu be it ba.. don wan go think so much.. now work work work $$$$$ most impt.. i believe my bros will agree wad i said... other than cny, looking forwards to june!! cos that the month tat i will get my increment, my performance bonus, my company bonus.. wahaha.. so now cant think of anything but to work work work..

to my bros:

these few days.. i wanna thanks my bros for acc me when i'm down.. though i know u all have ya probs but u guys still acc me thru out these days.. THANKS BROS!! after all this things happen, i not going to think anymore.. thinking why am i suffering.. perhaps they treat us as idiot ba or they had their own probs.. but anyways.. hope my bros probs wil be fine.. i been noticing whenever we came out, when we joke play laugh and do anything, we bros jus laugh and give a smile although we know we werent tat happy.. wish one day we bros will come out happily from each of our bottoms of our hearts.. and not wearing a fake happy face with a smile.. =)

ah di

with a smile :)

signing off~

2009-12-31T13:08:00.003+08:00

finally coming to the end of 2009. ytd i did sms her.. tell her everything.. i do not expect a reply from her.. and expected no reply from her.. for the past years.. i don think i fulfill any of my target.. hmmm wad can i say is for the new yr 2010 there is something i nid to achieve it.. and that is my career, my studies.. the rest of the thing will decide later if i reach my target..

anyways..

wish my bros, family and frens..

A HAPPY NEW YR 2010!!

Hope this new yr bring lots of joy and wealth to u all.. success and smooth sailing in everything u do..

time to bid goodbye to 2009 and welcome 2010...

yeepee!!!

yooohooo!!

Wahahaha!!

ah di

always crazy!!

signing off

2009-12-30T21:52:00.003+08:00

Its so hard to say goodbye especially to the person, u think u would spend the rest of ur life with.

Its so sad that it hav to end like how it begins,

We started from being strangers den being frens, being more than frens and sudddenly back to being strangers again.

I could say it out loud, i don nid u at all, but tat would be a lie..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
FOR ALL THE TIMES U STOOD BY ME..

FOR ALL THE TRUTH THAT U LET ME SEE..

FOR ALL THE JOY U BROUGHT TO MY LIFE..

FOR ALL THE WRONG U MADE RIGHT...

FOR ALL THE DREAMS U MADE COME TRUE..

FOR ALL THE LOVE U FOUND IN ME

I'LL BE FOREVER THANKFUL..

U R THE ONE WHO HELP ME UP,

NEVER LET ME FALL..

U WERE THE STRENGTH WHEN I WAS WEAK,

U WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK,

U WERE MY EYES WHEN I COULDN'T SEE,

U SAW THE BEST THERE WAS IN ME.

WHEN LOVE BECOMES A BROKEN HEART,

AND DREAMS BEGIN TO DIE,

I'LL NEVER TRY TO HOLD YOU BACK,

I WOULDN'T TRY CONTROLLING YOU,

IF ITS WAD'S U WAN, ITS WAD'S U WAN,

I WAN WAD BEST FOR U,

I HAV A LOTS OF THING TO SAY TO U..

I LOVE YOU BUT I NID TO SAY GOODBYE..

ITS TIME I LET YOU GO..

AH DI

she once say tat to love is to let go..

3 YRS~

its so hard to say goodbye~

SIGNING OFF

2009-12-29T16:20:00.002+08:00

To All the ones that being confuse in R/S matters,

Remember that you don't choose LOVE.

Loves choose you.

All you can do is accept it for all its mystery,

when it comes into your life!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A loads of things happen recently tat i was so unable to react.. Jus wan a peaceful mind for me to relax.. Everything jus happen

so fast.. And led me to not enough rest... keep thinking abt somethings.. wanted to say it out but there's no point saying all this..

saying out may caused everything to lose control..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Just wanted to say

Leave me alone..

Give me a break..

That's all i wanna say..

Ah di

MIA

Signing off

2009-12-10T21:22:00.002+08:00

Thanks ALL Wishing me Happy Birhday!!

Although i working on my birthday but i still receive bday from everyone regardless it is at work, sms and in

facebook. hmm.. jus wanna say other than my family, she is the 1st one wishing me bday de. :) some will think me

and her can be more than frens. after some serious thought, i think me and her can onli be frens but not more than

that. so bros or frens, can stop talking abt me and her.. blah blah blah.. and ah mei ar.. don intro girls to me liao..

this one is already enughh lo.. lol.. wahaha.. everyone don worry i fine!! maybe jus a bit siao siao when u see me

the nx time..

12 dec coming liao. quite a lot of things to prepare i think. haven go buy food yet.. den dono is there still any lorry

available for renting. dono my bonus coming in le ma.. this months is very busy for me.. work so stress. got a lot

of work to do. and oso some other matters to think this think tat.. til my head almost explode. so wanna enjoy the

bbq with all i can.. cos the whole of jan and feb nx year.. my working schedules is tight, its like all piled up.. don

even hav the time to take leave.. maybe nid work on sat and sun oso.. hais..

Lastly, hope everyone will hav fun with all u can at the bbq!! take this outing to play as much as u can!!maybe

going out later with my frens for drinking session.. i think i gonna becoming fat and fat.. cos work and other

matter stress so nid to relax so will be drinking quite a lot and eat quite a lot oso bah.. me will end here. if got the

time to updates i will updates again.. X'mas and new year 2010 is round the corner.. wish everyone happy X'mas

and a Happy new year 1st.. jus in case i cant updates in future.. =)

ah di

Any pain that one feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love"

I don think i have anymore chance.

如果上天在给我一次机会，我会告诉她我爱她。

老了没有回忆没关系，不要换来一大堆的后悔。

signing off

2009-12-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

Birthday Countdown Clock Generator HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEHAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAYHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!=D Happy 23rd Birthday to me!! Thanks PeeAnn, ZhiWen, Peng, Kevin, Jackson, Serene for the Seiko watch!!Up to now onli 1 person wish me nia sia. and that is joel. -.-O.0 Will my birthday be forgotten? LOLs!Hmmm.. Wondering the whole day if she will to wish me happy birthday? I guess should be no ba. cos she told me she got STM Short Term Memory. -.-"Anyway Tml my bday, i'm working! Sians.. sure tio sabo -.- Jus wan to wish myself to have smooth sailing ahead in everything i do!Earn more and more $$$^^ Ah DiSigning off^-^

2009-12-08T18:25:00.002+08:00

This coming sat is big day for all of us celebrating the NOV, DEC and oso JAN bday. not onli we r holding a bday. we r oso holding a gathering for every of us to come play. so i urge whoever sharing this bbq with me, hope ya brought ya frens along. don onli me brought nia.. like very weird. like celebrating my bday like tat.. but anyway.. wad more impt is everyone gather tgt and hav fun!! Today pee ann called me and say he's coming to the BBQ cos he booking out on sat.. woots. so now is ME, zhiwen, serene, jackson, peeann, jaey and xian is confirm.. left kat and peng and kevin not yet confirm. cos they r tied with their schedules. hopefully all will come and hav fun tgt.. think i got ard 5 to 8 army bros and their gfs' coming down and my sister and her gang coming too.

Nx mon 14th dec will be getting my AWS which i getting ard $800++.. hopefully it can credit into my bank on friday night. i think this month pay i getting almost close to 2300 bucks after cutting my cpf. WOO WOO~~ haha..

Actually now i nothing to worry abt.. onli scared on tat day BBQ, the weather change colours nia.. -.- cos this few days is like half hot half cold.. so everyone pls pray very hard to let the gods know tat DON RAIN on tat day!!

i think tat all bah.. hope everyone enjoys!!

ah di
signing off

2009-11-20T18:42:00.002+08:00

Sorry all.. i know i long time no updates liao.. com spoilt.. now using my sis laptop.. don wish to go updates the past outing..

coming outings

12/12/09-BBQ for Nov and Dec Babies

31/12/09-outing with brothers in arms(pending)

feb 2010-chalet with brother in arms

Dec coming liao.. very happy!! WHY?? Cos taking year end bonus.. although is jus pro-rated but calculate le still can take home $2000++.. weee~
:)

2009-10-18T16:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was so shiok.. slp til 2pm+ den wake up.. but was also feeling weak cos still recovering from my cough. den meet pee ann, zhiwen, serene and jack to amk.. we had no whr to go.. no place in our mind to explore. so went KFC to have lunch cum dinner 1st.. after KFC, we slack awhile. til some one came up with an idea to go cycling which i didnt want to.. but no choice so acc them cycle as pee ann going to meet some ppl from our secondary school. den went all the way dw to jack hse to cycle.. after tat cycle all the way to lena's hse @ kovan. @ there saw some of our secondary sch frens, its been 7 yrs since we last met. @ there got kai tiong, lin zhi wei, kenneth, jian cheng, lena, si yu, xiao hui and kimberley. guess i didnt miss anyone out or spell the names incorrectly.. so stay down til 11 plus.. cos serene ask if we want go rounding with huimin and xian.. so part our secondar sch frens and went jack hse to meet them. nice catching up with them as some had changed.. maybe now all working liao.. well ppl do changed.. @ ard 1 am.. we started off with our rounding in Xian driving his toyota wish. went bukit timah to eat @ 1st.. but dono whr is the place so went to panjang plaza to eat mac.. after tat jack and serene headed hm swt hm.. the rest of us continue to round.. as hui min suggested to go henderson waves so went them.. slack ard 5am.. den every 1 hm swt hm.. Thanks Xian for driving us hm.. its a fun journey.. nx week i'll pass some petrol $$ to u.. better take!! Lols..

later meeting the usual us @ our usual place again.. nx week will blog lesss. cos my schedule nx week is busy.. and tml nid to wake up early for the stupid audit again.. 2 more audits on monday to go.. wth..

Ah di
You could have been my Super Woman!
Signing off

2009-10-12T18:47:00.003+08:00

12/10/09

Went work early in the morning ard 7 cos today got the stupid audit again. cos due to the train we service got a bit of prob and plus today damn much works to do.. drag myself to work as felt my head was so damn heavy den eyes half closed.. after the whole day audit.. felt very tired.. cos the auditors like to ask a lot of question ask til i pek chek.. they already knows the answer still wan to ask.. knn.. wan us to tell them the answer. if say wrong den they can fault us.. knn.. lucky i'm so clever.. jus say the 3 magic words " I DONT KNOW" den pass all the question to my supervisor.. haha.. later going to slp.. maybe a little time spent in SA 1st.. but b4 tat i shall updates all the activities during the weekends.

11/10/09

Wake up @ 2++pm.. slack ard @ jack hse.. den went hougang point to shop with jack and serene. den went lunch cum dinner.. den packet food for jack family and ah xian. after tat ard 8 meet pee ann and zhiwen @ our usual place.. i think our usual place is going to be forgotten soon.. why i say like tat.. cos it used to be a place for the 4 of us to share all our joy and sorrow there.. after peng seldom meet us there, den pee ann say he don wan to come out le.. so left me and zhiwen.. the place is like going to be forgotten as 1 by 1 leaving the place like tat.. is like quite some time never feel the atmosphere we used to be @ our usual place. actually is we never had the same fun again as we r b4.. hais.. suan le.. wan come out don wan come out meet suit u all.. as long as we don forget each other can liao.. 10 yrs plus friendship is not easy.. if one wan MIA den we shall MIA tgt.. ai ya.. don wan say liao.. say till pek chek oso..

10/10/09

Early morning wake up meet zhiwen, huimin, ah xian, jack and serene go JB enjoys.. reach there ard 10 plus 11 den went to hav heavy breakfast. den went singing session, shop, play, smoke... shorten up all the details for JB cos jus wan to say we enjoys it much. but pee ann and peng cant join.. hope they can join the nx oversea outing. after tat 11pm reach SG, went serene hse to pack her clothes den after tat cabbed down to jack hse. play abit man lat den went for drinking session.. after tat while everyone were slping as tired and tipsy, me and jack stay awake for our SA session.. LOLS.. cos we still haven drink enugh.. den zhiwen join along with us oso.. till 7 plus in the morning den zzZ!

09/10/09

After work went to eat @ sakura international buffet with my colleagues @ YCK.. pay 30$ but eat more than 100$ food.. haha.. like long time nvr eat like tat go inside chiong eating all the way til i full + bloated til i cant stand or sit and smoke oso cant smoke.. hais.. eat so much till go back hm donated to my hse toilet bowl.. like waste the $ like tat.. LOLS

Its seems like me and zhiwen going to be left alone liao.. like wad i say earlier earlier in the blog.. from 4 to 3, now 3 to 2 liao.. hais.. jus wan tell pee ann, when we r tgt, $ is not a matter of issue.. the matter is jus as long as we r happy to share our joy tgt, sad to share our sorrow. peng seldom meet us as he nid to acc kat, this one can understand. but u cos of $ issue den don feel like come out.. i don think u can use tat for ur reason. last time we no $ oso like tat come out hav fun.. why not now? den wad is " brothers, 1 heart 1 soul" tat u said b4? if ya don feel like come out den i oso cant force you.. see how u decide.. if all don wan meet den don meet.. from now on i wont say anything regarding this matter anymore.

Ah DI
A true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else.
Signing off

2009-10-06T21:37:00.010+08:00

最近好累, 好久没写日志了哦。。最近一直在努力做工和赚钱，简直是忙的不亦乐乎！！今天无意
间听到了梁静茹的《崇拜》，一股难以言喻的痛楚不着痕迹的从心上流过。为什么感到这般如此的
痛？分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过，也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过！所以我们成了最
熟悉的陌生人！感情其实我真的输不起！为什么用了心的时候，爱不对的人，合适的人总是出现在
不合适的时候？我放下了尊严，放下了个性，放下了固执，但还是放不下你。。只觉得心好痛，我流
着眼泪，将所有你最近传的信息一个一个的删掉。。我记得我曾经告诉自己，不许在写有关你的任
何东西，可我还是做不到，又一次写有关你的事，我真的好累。。我也讨厌自己总这样，告诉自己,
干脆利落一点，所以剪了头发, 本想大改变发型，但总想得太多。。越来越不懂自己想要的是什么。
直到现在才知道自己对她并没有完全放开，一直以为我已经做到了, 不在为她而烦恼，但发现我一
直都在逃避。直到现在真的感觉到累了，看到自己现在这样的狼狈的样子，心里很矛盾。如果说不
爱，却又真的不想失去她，更不想放弃。。一切的一切我都不敢想的太多。。。。。我怕自己会崩溃
掉。。。。。。。。不过我想也差不多要崩溃了。。。。或许我真的应该学会去放弃，从心底里放弃, 干净
利落, 真真正正, 不留痕迹地放弃。。

好几天了，可能是因为做工太累，也或许是其他原因，整晚整晚失眠，大半夜都睡不着觉。。没有人知
道我心里是怎么想的，只想说一句：如果时间可以倒流，我会珍惜机会的，不让自己后悔的。。我愿
意, 在爱的路上陪你再走一回, 风雨的季节, 再也不让你孤独地俳徊，漆黑的夜晚，再也不让你偷偷
地流泪，但是时间是永远都不可能倒流的！！如今的我，不过是一个普通而又平淡的人，没有太大
的理想，没有太大的抱负，每天做着自己该做的事情。。可是面对如此死一般的生活，我总是感到
有些无趣。不知道今天是怎么了，天气很好，我却一点精神也提不起来，什么也不想做，连动也不想
动，感觉好累，也不知道为什么，但是就是很累很累。。很怀念一些事情，但是又不知道在想些什
么，好无聊！让我感觉生活是那么的无趣！算了。。还是试着去睡觉, 要不然明天, 后天, 大后天会
很忙很忙, 会觉得好累好累。。这几天不会去写日记, 因为会忙到累到没那个时间去写。。

认识一个人，是个缘。

　　期盼一个人，眼睛会酸。
　　等待一个人，心会疲倦。
　　喜欢一个人，却如此简单。
　　爱一个人，确很难，很难。

阿弟
(>_ _<)
( (..) )

爱你无悔你在我心中就是最美我在你给我的梦里深深陶醉即使注定今生错过我的爱与祝福也会

把你永远追随。。

2009-10-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

A Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived!
Relax . . . And read this slowly..

Just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
We don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and
you must forgive them for that.

True friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance..
The same goes for true love.

I Believe..
You can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
You should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
You can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
Either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
Money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
My best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...
Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe..
It isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
No matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
Our background and circumstances may have

influenced who we are, but. are responsible for who we become...

I Believe...
Two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
Your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
(WOW, THAT’s SO TRUE!!!)

I Believe...
Even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
Credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything..'

2009-10-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was moon cake festival.. As usual meet pee ann, jack and serene @ our usual hang out place. zhiwen didnt join as he got guard duty. den meet le, went to have our dinner, followed by huimin and ah xian come meet us.. so we sit down there chat.. didnt know tat pee ann share a similiar dreams with me. LOLS.. we went crazy as we chat abt the dreams.. den after tat some one suggest go cycling as this activities had been our usual outing after man lat outing.. cos it saves $$.. and can oso keep fit.. so went jack hse to take our bicycle, went to find kevin den i think he was with his gf. so decided to go down amk as pee ann nid settle something. so cycle all the way to amk. den cycle back to find kevin @ serangoon garden again.. =.=" Went nearby park to play with all the candles serene bought.. sit down there and chill.. den after tat went jack hse nearby kopitiam to eat supper and had drinks. den headed back hm sweet hm.. the outing was fun.. cos of 2 joker. LOLS.. haha.. DOn mention names who is it.. o.O?

jus now went our usual place again to meet up with zhi wen, peng, kat,pee ann, jack and serene. discuss abt the chalet we organising for DEC.den after tat as usual, headed hm swt hm..

tml start work liao.. feel a bit lazy.. how come weekends so fast.. hais.. no choice but to earn $. And recently had been into this games call SA (sudden attacK). jus to passs time.. in 2 months time going me 23 yr old liao.. getting older le.. nid earn loads of $ for future.. but dono can find my lifetime partner a not.. hmmm.. tired of finding oso.. walk 1 step see 1 step ba.. hais.. going to play SA for a little while b4 going into my dreamland..

Ah Di
你和我会不会有以后? 我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有, 我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流! 你听见了吗???
Signing off

2009-10-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

FUCK!!! MY EAR PIECE SPOILT.. KANINA BUAY CHAO CHEE BYE!! I KNOW MY EAR PIECE IS CHEAP AND COST ONLI 9.90$.. BUT IT SEEM LIKE MY FAMILY DONO HOW TO CHERISH IT.. KANINA BEI.. PUAH CHEE BYE.. PUAH BI YAO SIU.. KANINA!! WHEN I GO OUT MY EAR PIECE IS NICELY PLACED AT THE COMPUTER DESK, COME BACK LEFT SPOILT! MY FAMILY STILL SAY DONO. FUCK!! THINK WAD?? MY EAR PIECE COMMIT SUCIDE AR??? KANINA DU LAN.. THROW AWAY THE EAR PIECE.. KNNBCCB _|_ !!!

ile

2009-09-27T17:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my ah ma's 70th bdae.. so invited pee ann and zhiwen go oso.. den went there with jack and serene 1st.. den go meet pee ann and zhiwen.. den later and later every1 in the family came.. long time nvr had such a gathering.. yesterday its was fun.. except for some no balls bastards ruin the good moods of every1.. those bastards better off dead.. den after my ah ma bdae.. me, zhiwen, pee ann, jack,serene,huimin and ah xian went cycling after a heavy dinner we had.. den went back jack hse wash up den pee ann and zhiwen went back while i stay at jack hse.. later going to meet pee ann and zhiwen and peng with serene and jack.. cos after that they going boook in..

Lastly.. want wish my ah ma stay healthy and cheerful always.. =D

Ah di
my mood is like angry.. but like a bit moody.. plus a bit sad.. wth.. wad going on with me?
signing off

2009-09-24T20:55:00.003+08:00

The pain i have is unbearable.. i cant handle the pain.. ever since u walked out i have been standing here all alone crying. i cant escape the pain that u gave me.. u were and are my everything. u caused me so much pain.. the pain is unbearable. how can i find a cure for this pain? the pain is unbearable for years, its getting too much for me to handle. my heart is yours but u don't seem to care. u stand there and smile while i am in tears.. broken hearts are never healed.. dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy.. and now i'm here, all alone.. wondering what i have done so wrong.. watching my whole life before my eyes and feeling the cruel world crash down on me.. Can't you see what pain u had caused?Does anyone know that my heart is broken ? perhaps no one really knows because of the laughter I show when I'm with them, no ones know that my heart is hurting because of that person. Years have passed by but the memories are still here.. i may look happy.. take it as nothing had happen. i can laugh and laugh, i can lie to myself, my brothers and my friends.. but i cant lie to my heart.. and the tears from the laughter are the tears from the heartbreak.. hais..

;( Ah di );
If I'm so emotionless, why does it still hurt ?Sometimes, i wonder if people would be happier if i wasn't here..
Signing off

2009-09-21T16:07:00.008+08:00

Yesterday went serene hse play man lat and eat dinner.. Thanks to her mama.. the dinner was good... den after tat we had our man lat session. Den ard 11 we all a bit sian, den decided to chiong all the way to jack hse for cycling. But after reaching jack hse, all look tired liao.. so didnt went for cycling so every1 watch tv, chit chat and slp. when everyone is lying down,there is this particular person slping beside me talking, whispering to himself non-STOP.. 害我睡不着。but jus wan tell him i had recorded part of talk. and oso duplicate one copy into serene laptop. haha.. figuring now how to put in blog.. LOLS.. den out of a sudden, every 1 went to slp. den pee ann and zhiwen wake up ard 9 plus and went back.. den me slp til 1 ++.. den went lunch with jack and serene. den took a long way back to my hse.. thanks to serene.. :X Ltr going out again to meet them again.. so i shall end my blog here.. and go to slp 1st..

aH DI
absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones,as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire
Signing off

2009-09-20T17:16:00.004+08:00

Afternoon ard 2 plus wake up.. den head very pain.. like one blood vessel going to burst like that.. den whole person very blur..den wash up.. went to cut hair.. cut away all the unpleasant memories.. going to change into a new ME.. from my long hair long sideburns til now very very short hair.. feel like very refreshing.. so a new JIAN WEI, AH DI is reborn today.. stepping out of all the unhappiness, walking forward to a new path.

yesterday.. went out with pee ann, zhi wen, jack, serene and kevin to town.. meet up @ ard 3 plus.. supposed to meet @ 3 but some ones late den have to wait. went amk central eat 1st before heading to town.. den go town meet zilin.. den went walk ard.. den end up @ lucky plaza our usual place in town to play arcade and pool.. den went to have our dinner there oso.. after that pee ann wan to go see how club V3 look like.. so zilin brought us there.. i think nx time should ask zilin bring a GPS come out.. if not she will be lost in singapore if she is alone..own hse oso dono how to go back. where got such a person dono how to go back to his or her own hse.. i bet she an alien.. LOL.. den went club v3 look look den decided to go zilin working pub drink. went there order 5 jugs.. found that i long time nvr drink like cant drink liao.. not like last time we used to drink almost every weekends.. den drink til zilin knock off from her work. den went sg river relax.. den wait for zilin chauffeur to send her hm.. den we go wake for cab to go home.. from boat quay to chinatown den have cab go hm.. knnbccb.. got $ no cab want pick us up.. all is wan change shift de.. finally @ ard 7 plus reach hm.. den bath and slp..

Later going to serene hse for MJ session.. den her mum cooked for us dinner.. wa.. paiseh plus a bit touched sia.. hope can win some tonight.. ti gong bo pi bo pi.. bo pi wa win a bit ar.. not greedy but win a bit... and not onli must win.. and oso the most is to enjoys!! HUAT LAH!!

Ah DI
To forget mean putting it in one corner and never think about it again..
孤独寂寞的我等待着世界另一边的那个你
Signing off

2009-09-18T18:09:00.002+08:00

Just finish my work.. this whole week is damn shag.. tonite could be a nice day to slp after work but my brothers in arms, my army fren jio me out.. long time no see them so decide to meet them.. and of cos thg of putting aeroplane oso.. but thinking of later not my aeroplane kanna bomb, is my hp kanna bomb.. in army wad ever problem or tio dai ji with other camp ppl or officer. they were there to back me up.. well wad i can say they r really a true fren that i found in my 2 yrs NS. and of cos compare to my brothers. they ranked 2nd place.. so meetting them ltr @ Marina sq den to bugis for steamboat.. after that dono whr will they go liao.. see wad the plan..

Tml meeting zhiwen, pee ann, jack, serene and zilin. maybe will meet them quite late as to see how the plan goes tonight.

other than tat.. jus wan to say, ITS FINALLY FRIDAY AND A LONG WEEKENDS.. EVERYONE ENJOYS!!

Ah DI
沉默着走了有多遥远抬起头蓦然间才发现一直倒退倒退到原点.. HAIS~
Signing Off

2009-09-13T22:01:00.001+08:00

WEnt cycling on sat night.. with me myself ah di, ah wen, ah ann, ah wei, weiwei, ah mei and ah xian.. went cycling ard serangoon and sengkang area.. cycle cycle cycle cycle cycle til all the way ard 5++6am den reach ah wei hse.. den everyone bath.. den i bth liao went to slp 1st.. slp till ah ann wake me up with his voice.. like alarm clock like tat.. den ann and wen went hm.. den slp til 4++ wake up den meet ann and wen in amk again den talk cock and discuss whr wan meet nx sat.. den book in de book in.. hm sweet hm de went hm.. dono how to survived for the rest of the week liao.. cos left $2.45.. buy cig oso not enuff.. knn.. jia lat liao.. nx fri still going for steamboat with my brothers in arm.. hais.. i think i go slp 1st den think of how to survive for the rest of the days til pay day..

ah di
Zzz=.=zzZ
dun make somebody ur everything. coz once he or she is gone, u are left with nothing..
signing off

2009-09-12T18:00:00.004+08:00

Jus wake up to blog.. blog abt the rounding session. Later going back to slp again.. my eyes half open half close.. Yesterday went balestier Rd to rent a 10 ft lorry with zhiwen, jack and serene.. quite cheap lor.. 50$ rental plus 50$ deposit.. and of cos the lorry wasn't in good condition.. is like quite lousy.. after rental and all the checks.. i drove to pump some diesel cos knn that lorry going to be no more diesel liao den drove to jack hse to pick up huimin den went zhiwen hse.. let zhiwen test drive a bit, cos he use to drive car which is auto de, some more lorry is manual de.. so he test drive abit den went to his camp to collect some of his things. waited outside the camp for him. den again i drive to serene hse to take one of her tv.. den slack here slack there have our late lunch while waiting for zilin.. den went to panjang plaza to pick up zilin.. den went back to jack and zhi wen hse to put back all their things..

It was already 6 plus 7. den our 1st destination is was to go changi.. went ard OCH there ard village.. den zilin and hui min like so eager to going explore OCH like that.. but majority didnt wan to cos 7th month.. so all never went in.. den drove to lim chu kang some wulu wulu area for jack,serene,huimin and zilin fro their test driving session.. @ first zhiwen was guiding them den changed me.. for me @ 1st it was very scary.. MY balls i already left in my hse never take out den they still can scared me til my heart wan drop out.. LOLS.. some turning point like wan hit tree den some even went up the curb and nearly hit the power box den after i drove and teach them how to clutch in den get biting point.. den they started to improve slowly.. after all i give them a pass for their test driving.. they were not stupid after i teach them driving.. haha lol.. if i were to rank them out den its go like this.. jack, huimin, zilin and serene.. cos the most EMERGENCY BRAKE I PULL is when serene was driving..haha.. scary driver..jkjk.. lols.. but i believe them tat they can do it. so wish them faster get driving license den got $ everyone rent a car out den go for rounding... den went back to jack hse to pick up his parents and hao hao go east coast bedok jetty to find uncle.. den enjoy the breeze while hao hao go fishing
den the girls sit one side to gossip here gossip there.. den jack was gaming with his younger bro hao hao.. while me and zhiwen sit another side to chat.. we chat very long and loads of thing.. we chat abt WHO,WHAT,WHY,WHEN,HOW.. den ard 3++ 4 am go changi village to eat our breakfast cum supper.. den went ard to see ah gua.. den send jack parents and his younger bro back hm sweet hm.. den went chinese garden.. slack there a while.. during the journey den the girls cant tahan liao so went to slp.. some more the girls like really treat the lorry as their bed.. den slp til like pig like tat.. not even think of their images while a loads of ppl were looking @ the 3 little pigs Zzz.. one slp til mouth open big big.. den another one likes to put her feet out of the lorry railing to let other road user enjoy her feet smell.. and one more bandage herself with jacket herself like mummy like tat.. wahaha.. i saw those ppl on the bus see till their eyes big big mouth big big and wondering wad r this 3 little pigs doing.. wahaha.. den send zilin and huimin back hm..
den the rest of us went back balestier rd to return the lorry.. den cabbed hm to slp.. after 1 day of rounding very tired.. so reached hm bath straight away slp til now.. going to slp more after this.. cos later going cycling.. we will plan more rounding session in future.. after all it was very fun but dono wad other think is it fun a not..

hao bah.. i will stop here.. i wan go Zzz liao..

Ah di
爱没有对错 ; 只有伤痛 . 失落遗憾伤心 - 你说的话,我一直不能放下.我是否爱错.不再哭.不回头 - 我想这是最后一次可以骄纵任性放肆
Signing off..

2009-09-10T18:29:00.002+08:00

These past days work is very tiring as cant sleep at night hence not enough sleep.. but thinking of tml on leave and going out for a rounding session..feel very excited.. but got veh but dono whr to go.. nvm.. tml den decide again..

This afternoon call zhiwen to confirm tml outing with him.. den chat and concern abt our bro pee ann.. suddenly he raised his voice and tell me: "WHy is there no 1 to care for me?! not onli pee ann feeling down, he oso feeling down.. well.. perhaps i neglect him le.. he feeling down, i believe is onli that matters.. well well well... 2 bros feeling down.. 1 bro sailing in the sea while another 1 more bro in army seems enjoying his life.. the only person to care and concern them i think is me.. lols.. pai seh zhiwen.. i will care and concern u and pee ann @ the same time.. but if i were to care for u bros.. den who going to care for me? i onli 1 person 1 piece nia.. Oso no 1 care for me.. i oso very xin ku de.. :( lols. jkjk.. wahaha.. i no nid ppl care de.. I don hav any joy or sorrow.. jus an emotionless guy.. happy go lucky.. still the old sentence i always say.. " onli for the sake of my brothers.. got brothers got me.. no brothers i think i had end my life earlier..

So whenever u bros nid me i will always be there.. This sentence swee b0? if whoever, bros or frens is feeling down can call me anytime anywhere if I'm free.. but if u r happy don forget to share with me! =D

Going to slp soon.. as prepare for tml rounding session and sat night cycling.. wonder if there any one can be beside me singing songs or read bedtime stories for me to slp.. LOLS..

Ah Di
人生中总是会遇到很多事是你无法想象的.. 就算是伤心难过或心碎的事，当你想起的时候，都会变成美好的回忆~~
Signing off to dreamland..

2009-09-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today work was shag and very very tired.. when going to reach the end of my work, Pee Ann called.. so we chat til i knock off frm work. As we chat along, can hear that he is feeling very very down.. feeling very very sad.. Just suddenly his tears dropped le.. I know he had been holding his tears for a very long time liao. so asked him to let go all his sadness.. Oso can feel his pressure and stress from army too. after recently so much thing had happen on him. I can feel for his sadness and pain he got. To my bro like tat.. i oso feel sad.. So decided to go to his hse after work to accompany him. went his hse.. chat with him. don let him think too much.. den after that go to our usual place to had dinner.. after dinner we sat down and chat.. i called zhiwen too to chat with him.. hope that he can feel better. den @ ard 8++pm.. den he headed towards his camp and i went back hm.

So Pee ann.. when ever u feeling down, can call us.. WAD R BROTHERS FOR?.. For fun? NO RITE!! BROTHERS R FOR SHARING HAPPINESS AND UNHAPPINESS!NO MATTER WAD WE BROTHERS R ALWAYS THERE FOR U! SO hope whenever u r down. CALL us.. don hold it to urself.. dont u think it is pain while keEping everything to urself?

As spoken jus now.. i will make myself free on either 26th sept or 3rd oct.. as i know u wan go clubbing to let out all ur unhappiness and stress.. And u wan to cycling on this sat, i will let jack know if we can go cycling again.. cos can see serene is quite tired after 2 weekends of cycling.. if not we borrow bicycle from him den go..

And coming friday.. going rounding.. a bit sian that pee ann and peng cant tag along as they have army.. but nvm. we can still arrange another outing again.. taking the veh on friday 12pm til sat 12 pm.. still no planning on where to go yet.. and will discuss with the group coming with me whether thay have any place in their minds..

So i shall end my blog here.

AH di
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2009-09-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

After continuous 2 nites of cycling.. my whole body is achin,, and cos of eat the mega spicy my throat become swollen.. cos too heaty liao..my mum say is throat infection,, sian liao lor.. now talking like retarded.. eat or drink oso pain.. hais.. will cut all the details.. as i very tired..

the 1st nite went cycling @ serangoon garden area..
The 2nd nite went cycling @ east coast..

Although is tired.. but It very fun..

And pee ann cheer up.. We bros, u, me, zhiwen will continue our L&H.

2009-09-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

today work was so damn tired and shag.. still recovering from my flu.. by right i can borrow lorry from my aunt.. but now Singapore implement a new rules for lorry and therefore i cant use my aunt lorry that does not meet the new rules of the requirement.. knnccb.. cos of this i have to go find car rental.. and oso still got zhi wen there to help me.. thanks bro.. hopefully we can find a lorry that can rent out cheap.. just to find car rental, find til my head spinning and can feel my head behind one of the blood vessel going to burst.. PS to All.. actually can borrow just that cos of that stupid rules, and we had to rent lorry and hav pay for both lorry and diesel.. i will stop blogging here as nid to sleep more.. cos my flu is caused of not enough slp.. lol.. this is wad the doc say ytd.. ask me slp more..

Ah di
Signing off

SICKED!!

2009-08-31T10:43:00.000+08:00

Today i was sick.. down with a flu.. went company awhile den go see doctor.. lucky not H1N1.. if not those yesterday with me de mus go quarantine liao.. lol.. see doc for free.. cos company pay.. so mc for today nia.. feel like dying like tat den the doc so stingy give 1 day nia.. knn.. i think i shall stop here and go rest... take good care every1..

Ah di
signing off

UPDATES!!

2009-08-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

POst recently activities to my blog.. due to some blogger problem all my photo is half de..and will post some photo we took during our outing if the blogger is ok.. and serene is doing her best to help me make my blog look better and nice.. saying a big THANK YOU to u.. =D now still halfway done.. cos of stupid blogger prob..

28/08/09

WEnt meet jack and serene after work.. went amk S11 to eat our dinner.. den slack ard here and there.. after that went to jack hse ton.. @ ard 1am.. cos nothing to do so we decided to go cycling.. a total of 6 of us went.. me, jack, serene, ah boy, ah mei and ah ong.. went cycling ard serangoon garden and central.. til ard 5 -6am den hm sweet hm..

29/08/09

WEnt cycling again.. den went with me jack serene ah mei and ah xian.. cycle from north 4 all the way down to geylang jus to drink soya bean.. lol.. den cycle all the way to east coast to find my uncle.. den my uncle lon bang us hm..

After all wad i can say is this weekend was a healthy lifestyle programme i had.. can lose weight some more.. woots.. and oso unfortunately ah boy fall sick and went hospital.. jus now went visit him.. he look a bit better now.. jus tat he cant smoke..=.= hope he get well soon..

My 2 brothers pee ann and zhiwen now is in love with girls they like and is feeling down.. wad should i do in order to help them.. somehow they still got their girls to miss, to think.. while i don hav any.. sian.. how come they can find so suddenly and look like is very easy.. but i cant.. maybe they hav more better terms den me.. hais.. wad can i still say.. a lonely heart in a lonely night.. when den can i be in love? i not desperate for love but jus finding someone that can care and concern me a little.. LOLLS not everytime had a good chance to come with.. i don think i have any more chance in r/s liao..

after 2 days of cycling.. so shiok but very tired.. its time for me to go slp now.. as tml still got work.. gd nite every1..

Ah di
Signing off

2009-08-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

These few days of works is damn shag.. work work work.. no matter how much i slp, nvr seems to be enough.. thinking of this coming weekend,, my bros nid to be in camp for some stupid duty/confinement.. dono peng free a not.. but think he wont be free cos of acc kat.. lucky still got jack n serene... hope i don disturb their privacy.. lols... a lot of thing will happen in the coming months.. pee ann going taiwan on late oct and zhiwen going Australia on early nov.. a bit sian by listening to them tat they will be going overseas.. cso no 1 acc me.. lols.. anyway lucky i got my reservist on 1st 2 weeks of nov.. i think i will stop here.. now on the fone with pee ann.. he damn misses her.. lolss.. just wish them tat they can get on well...

Ah DI zzz
signing off

Photos Taken the past 2 days.

2009-08-23T17:29:00.007+08:00

Photos Taken After K Box.

From top Left: Me,Pee Ann,Jack,Chee Peng,Zhiwen,Kevin
From Bottom Left:Zilin,Serene,Kat,Ah Mei

From top Left: Me,Pee Ann,Jack,Chee Peng,Zhiwen
From Bottom Left:Ah Mei,Zilin,Serene,Kat

Brothers Photos

The Ladies Photos
Brothers Photo Taken B4 going Peng Hse.
Will Uploads More Photos In future..

Gathering.

2009-08-23T16:34:00.000+08:00

21/08/09

Went meet up with my bros,Pee ann,zhiwen,peng and his gf kat,jack and his gf serene,ah mei and her "ah jack" and alan after my work.. went A star our usual place to have dinner and wait for others to arrive. den we went peng house to ton except alan. as usual playing our black jack. this time pee ann very lucky won a total of 70++$. den after that we call for mac delivery, den pee ann cos win $$ treat the mac.. den after eating, i cant tahan liao.. so slp for a while.. when i wake up pee ann and peng oso lie down flat liao.. lol.. den we wake up @ ard 6 plus 7, to discuss the big day for pee ann to meet zilin the girl he like.til ard 8am.. den everyone went hm to rest 1st.. waiting for pee ann to sms us the details.

22/08/09

Slept for ard 4 hrs wake up.. still very tired.. but to support my bro pee ann.. so wake up to stand by for his sms.. lol .. den meet zhi wen, pee ann and jack and serene go sport link to buy present for kevin.. den went A star to have dinner/drink.. after tat go my mum shop to collect flower that pee ann wan give to his girl..den went K Box our usual place as well.. den go there sing, hav fun, drink while waiting for zilin to appear so that pee ann can BIAO BAI to her.. finally @ ard 10++, zilin appeared. den we all leave the room to let the both of them romantic a bit.. abt their mystery relationship, i dono their answer.. but jus wish them all the best.. Jus wan say.. nothing is perfect in this world. u cant neither find a perfect girl nor a perfect guy.. if by any chance u meet a guy/girl that is good 9.9/10. don let it slip in front of u.. after kbox, went bugis st, to play lan.. play cs.. cos onli know how to play cs.. play til ard 7 plus den hm sweet hm.. got take some pics.. but blogger seems like having some problem.. so maybe try again tmr or later.. To sum it up, We really had Lots of fun la..

Jian Wei
Signing off

Planning my path and this time is for REAL!

2009-08-20T21:22:00.001+08:00

Today i have planned my path. Starting out at my career as Technical officer, Signal(Train System) in SMRT Trains Ltd. I will work in this company for long, maybe til i retired. I going to studies after 3 yrs of my work as company is willing to subsidy my school fees if my performance is good. So from now i will work extra hard to get good performances. My big boss told me that i still young ask me go study. One day sure can be something different. my boss think highly of me, look up on me. So i didn't want to let him down. Even my supervisor also support me. So i decided to work very hard, go study and get a diploma to become an Assistant Engineer/Executive Engineer/Senior Engineer/Unit Manger. If can i also wan to further my studies to get a degree. Den aim for Senior Manager/Director. Maybe some of my friends think i wont make it as i too playful and get bad result in my school days. My ITE times was the worst. Play and work too much. Some friends also ask me, "Jian Wei, do you regret for not study that hard in your past". My answer was a Yes because i was young and don't think about my future. Now I'm still young still can catch in this Society. Perhaps I need to take a longer steps while others just need a shorter steps. Now I'm serious of studying, working hard, craving out a career and be a successful person. And i was thinking recently that Vanessa (the girl i admire for 6 yrs)can do it, Why can't I? So my brothers and friends out there, please be understanding if i can't go out join u all, as i serious in the path i planned for myself. Do gives me your support! =D As for now, all my determinations and strengths will be on my work and studies.and as well i wont forget my brothers. And i don have time for R/S matters. UNLESS i find a really good girl in my path. One day, I'm sure i am different from what i am now. Waiting for the days.

Times really flew fast. As Pee Ann told me everything is changing. Like the 4 of us, we do not know each others from the start. But now we r Friend & brothers for 10 years le. We go to the same secondary school, same ITE, Work tgt as part time waiter, Share all of our joys,sadness and everything. from an teenager den an young adult. wa.. times flies.. thinking back all those memories we had last time, its was really fun lor.. hope 1 day we can gathers out or plan an outing or overseas. and have fun wad we were b4!

And also I would like to apologize to my bro, Pee Ann for saying some harsh words to you. but i meant you well. Sorry! and hope these matters can put behind us. =D

Jian Wei Ah Di
Signing off

it had gone beyond my limit of my tiredness. Shag!!

2009-08-18T18:17:00.000+08:00

Updates of recent activities B4 i go to my dreamland.

17/08/2009

Went PS straight after work to catch a movie "where got ghost" with Pee ann, jack,serene,linbei and her 2 frens. 2nd time tat i watch this movie. and oso to acc pee ann.. and lin bei's 2 frens were so unfriendly tat i almost lose my cool..when pee ann trying to make fren with them, chat with them, they show their unfriendly look den gossip between themselves like treating pee ann as a fool.knn.. think pee ann like very good to bully like tat.. endure their unfriendliness thru out the outing cos they r lin bei frens. and lin bei is serene bitch den serene is jack gf. and pee ann like lin bei. so give faces to them. if not i shall let her 2 frens know pee ann and me is not tat easily beaten.after the movie went jack hse again play man lat.. this time round didnt lose much.. jus onli lin bei is lucky nia..lols.. play til ard 5 i think den cabbed hm slp for one hour den floated to my workplace.. lucky my boss today happy cos his bdae.. so he let me do relax de work.. so shag.. had been playing man lat over the past few days and hav little of slp.. tired!!!

16/08/2009

Went discovery ctr for company event.. nothing to do down there oso.. won a 20$ voucher nia.. den go meet zhiwen pee ann jack and serene go eat dinner @ lot 1.. after tat go serene hse play man lat with her mum.. her mum was so cute.. lols.. i believe pee ann agree with me.. we had a lot of fun playing man lat with her mum.. and serene, Ace,9,2 = 21 points not 12 pts.. if next time see this types of cards don gong gong go draw another cards. wahahahaha lols...

15/08/2009

Went amk hub to meet up ah boy, ah mei and xiao yi and ah mei admirer and ah ben go catch midnight movie "where got ghost" after tat nothing to do go eat den boring til go xiao b hse for a while den cabbed hm to slp..

Coming up activities

22/08/2009
Meeting up my gangs of bros go buy present for our bro kevin bdae..

11/09/2009
Borrow lorry go rounding

19/09/2009
Maybe another gathering with all bros and frens to pub.. <<< pee ann still organising..

Nothing to post rite now.. wish pee ann r/s smooth smooth.. bro.. all depend on urself le.. wish everyone smooth smooth in their r/s and wad ever thing they do..

JianWei Ah di
Signing off

14 / 08 / 2009

2009-08-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

Went Beer Belly with zhi wen, pee ann and their army frens and frens, yao ren, jack, serene and lin bei. Yao ren open 1 Johnnie Walker, and the rest of us open 2 bottles of Martell. after drinking, sure went vomit as i am very tired.. den me, pee ann , zhi wen ,wai keat,jack, serene and lin bei ton over night.. from boat quay to singapore river to find merlion den to lau pa sat. is a long journey. den after that wai keat went hm, and the rest of us went up to jack hse to play man lat. wad i can say is thanks for the donations. wahahahaha.. LOLS.. play til 9am.. den cabbed hm.. after all it was very fun.. from 10am sleep til now den wake up.. shiok.. tmr dono whether wan go company event @ discovery ctr a not.. feel a bit boring, hav to wake up early and go there. i think most probably should be nvr go ba.. i will stop here a nothing to post.

Ah DI
正在寻找我的命中注定。
Signing off

Updates for recent activities.

2009-08-11T18:44:00.002+08:00

3D2N @ east coast

Went east coast park for 3D2N camping there.. cos cousin alicia bdae.. went there with zhiwen.. but he onli stay for 1N.. went there saw xiao b.. long time no see him liao.. shorten up all the details.. as i very tired to blog cos i onli slp for ard 6 hrs for 3 days.. had a lot of fun playing volley ball cycling fishing sleeping building my tent eating BBQ... really enjoyed the fun.. hope next time my whole family oso can tagged along.. but is impossible lah.. they seldom go for these outing.. especially my parents.. they would rather enjoy staying @ hm or with their frens.. long time never go out with my family to go enjoy since young.. i think the last time my family gather tgt was we went to zoo.. i oso not quite sure.. sianss.

$$$ issues

hais.. no $$ liao.. now hand tight tight.. sian.. borrow $$ from supervisor and frens to clear hm bills debt..feel very pai seh sia.. start work earn $$ still have to borrow.. jus start work onli oso borrow from my supervisor.. luckily my supervisor is good.. lend me $$ or else i dono who can i go to. my gang of brother cant help much as i know their probs too.. still owe my brother peng 300$. owe him for quite long time liao.. i think got 2 yrs liao.. but he always say to me, take your time to return.. i oso feel very pai seh.. every months give 300 for hse bills oso not enough..very tired of it liao.. very fan.. sometime wan to find someone to talk to but find no one to talk to.. can onli talk and write to my blog den everyone will see.. very tiring.. to sum it up.. owe my supervisor 200$, my colleague 100$, peng 300$. all is jus because of bills bills bills. next month pay left not much for me to spend.

upcoming activities to go if i have enough $.

14th august - going to caili's pub drink if she working.if not canceled.

16th august - Company event @ discovery ctr. such a boring events.still nid to find partner go de.. wth..

11th Sept - borrow lorry go rounding.. if not stay @ hm watch tv.

Start to feel a little lonely.. searching for my 命中注定。hope can find one that is faithful, caring , loving and don mind appearance..if anyone gonna ask me slim down den find. i not going to listen to your nonsense. cos my fren neither hav money nor looks and is bigger size than me but can find a good and caring gf coming to be future wife. den i think there is no need for me to slim down. my fren once told me a relationship is not about $$ and looks.. is abt feelings and trust..as for slim down i will go slim down de.. so now if can wish i can find a girl like this. i don wan those in their minds or eyes onli for appearances and $$.. but now must stop 1st cos i now in debts. wait til i free of debts den find one.. if really find my 命中注定。i will treat her more better than my ex. earn $$ for her to enjoy.. hope i can find 命中注定。 den don nid to bother my brothers and fren.. cos they hav their own thing to do oso.. feel pai seh when ever i talk to them while they r doing their thing when i am down.. some times they r busy but they still lend me their listening ears.. feeling thankful but oso feel pai seh to them oso.

i will stop here.. as now very tired..and as i type dono got typo error a not. oso dono type the words or sentence correct a not.. so nid to get some slp.. hope tmr is a better day.

Jian Wei Ah Di
正在寻找我的命中注定。
signing off.

Whole body aching.

2009-07-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 29/7/09

Went to take my IPPT @ khatib camp with cheng lye and joel. no need to say i know every one know the result.. at least cleared the ippt for this window.. long long times, think got 2 years no exercise liao.. after finish my ippt.. til now my whole body is aching.. wth.. til the nights i cant slp.. so from today start every friday i will exercise.. later going swimming with my brothers in arms.. so i will end my blog here.. nothing to write or update anyways..

jiiaaannnnn weeiii
siigggnnnniiiiinnnnnnggggggg offffffffffffffff.............................................................

Photos taken during the past few months

2009-07-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

Someone told me that my blog is too boring without pics. so decided to upload some..

The 4 of us @ MOS. from left, me, peng, zhi wen, pee ann

Taken @ Rebel. pee ann,zhi wen,me

Take During CNY. Simon,me,Xiao B

Take during CNY. My family and cousins.

Taken @ amk plaza kbox. the ones usually hang out tgt. me, zhi wen, si xing, pee ann, alan

Taken on jarryl bdae. the whole gang of us in my section during my 2 years of national service.

Taken B4 few days to ORD! buddies met during my 2 years of national service.

to sum it up... we are brothers in arms lah... lolx.. when we ORD-ED... we organise a chalet and it was very successful... hahaaa....

Taken today @ workplace bus stop. Boring nothing to do oso. Vik (my senior), JD (my Asst Supervisor), me

That's all.. Will post more pics in future.. think something wrong with some of my calculation i made to the photo size. but forget it.. gg to slp.. NIte everyone.

Jian Wei
Signing Off..

Another Sat Passed...

2009-07-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

Ytd meet up zhi wen went for dinner.. den we go cheng san CC watch lion dance high poles competition.. the teams some were very good but some still not up to standard.. den after that went meet jack and his gf den go and have their dinner den arcade den went to jack hse rot here rot there.. play UnO some more.. den after tat home sweet home.. every sat like a bit meaningless cos we have no place to go den in the end end up man lat.. haha .. planning with zhiwen may be later go see traditional lion dance competition.. but see how.. wad i can say now is another Saturday wasted.. looking towards to 15th aug that we planned to go pub.. nothing to write.. will blog if i really hav time cos i having a busy schedule next coming week...

Jian Wei
Signing off

Going to slim down from now on..

2009-07-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

This is my younger brother's video.. he do this video jus to agitate me. well i think its time i going to slim down.. He wan me to slim down oso.. i oso think that slim down is good jus tat i too lazy for exercise. will go slim down starting from this very seconds. here is his videos.. btw my younger brother is still single.. any recommendations? LOLS.. enjoy watching!!

another saturday pass...

2009-07-19T12:50:00.005+08:00

Ytd meet pee ann and zhi wen go down orchard de lucky plaza to play pool and oso back to play our ticket game machine.. since ard last year i think til now.. we collected 7000++ tickets.. but still donno wad to exchange for prize. so we decided to keep it til it reach the numbers of ticket we want to change. we spends tons of $$ in that ticket machine.. lols.. tell other ppl they oso don believe.. after that went cine pasta mania to hav our dinner.. den meet si xing and her frens down there.. chat for a little while.. den cabbed down to amk to wait for my cousin and his gf. den go pee ann hse for man lat.. play till 3 am den home sweet home.. again this time round de man lat king is our pee ann. he is on luck this few months .. although is didnt win much. and i didnt lost much..

PLAN FOR FUTURE OUTING

- Already plan on 15th Aug go Caili working de pub..den kevin bdae is coming. buying present on the day oso..

- Planning next year after pee ann and zhi wen ORD den go Genting.. actually plan to go this JULY but they hav army so cancelled

I think that should be all.. actually planning to go thailand after genting but think earn $$ 1st den go..

Next sat pee ann on duty cant come out.. zhiwen on duty oso i think.. maybe rest @ hm or wad see how.. nothing to write liao.. stopp here.. going pee ann hse to help him later @ 2..

JIan Wei
Signing off

What a day....

2009-07-14T20:43:00.003+08:00

Hais..

Ytd just posted here tat my boss put me at changi work.. Today he called me and ask me go back bishan.. wth!! knn!! Good working life end liao.. tmr going to start hell life at bishan.. so sian.. den my boss like to aim new staff like me.. whenever i smoke in bishan depot, he will suddenly appeared in front of me.. like he got GPS like tat.. Not only me kanna.. my other senior and supervisor kanna b4 oso....everytime he see me or start a conversation with me, he will start with " did you smoke today? are you smoking now? wth.. i wan smoke my business lah.. nothing gonna to do with him.. lol.. my supervisor say he like tat de.. like to care this and that.. but after all.. i can say he still a good boss lah.. cos if wan take leave he sure approve but onli thing tat he likes to care this and tat.. no choice lah.. go back bishan den go back lor. at least don have to wake up early liao.. what a day...

Ah Di
signing off

A video to make your day laughing. Happy Laughing away all your unhappiness!

2009-07-14T20:32:00.004+08:00

A video from a fren.

Next time no need go genting to gamble. There is a smart way to gamble too. This video will teach u how.. ^^

I'M BACK

2009-07-13T22:12:00.003+08:00

Back to my blog...

So many mths left my blog isolated.. due to working.. and pee ann was asking how is my blog.. why nvr write liao.. Been 6 mths i hav not touch my blog.. not even log in once.. hais.. whr got time??

Now working as Technical Officer in SMRT Changi Depot.. at first was working in Bishan depot, but due to H1N1, my boss throw me go changi.. although is far, like wake up @ 5.30am not like bishan can wake up 7.00am.. but my life in changi was very very much different than bishan. bishan was like a bit hell but changi was like heaven lah.. thanks to my boss giving me such chance.. wahahaha.. wan to smoke eat sleep oso can !

Recently nothing better to do.. Mostly hang out with my brothers and cousin and frens .. go eat "hao liao".. play.. shopping.. sing KTV.. play man lat.. @@ girls.. so many things to do..

Last sat meet out with pee ann, zhi wen go eat waraku.. we go there like a bit "sua gu" like tat.. cos we hardly go these place to eat mostly we eat @ A star.. our place tat we usually hang ard.. den after tat meet my cousin jack and his gf serene and her butterfly gang soon to become moth gang de sisters.. lol.. they call each other bitch sia.. maybe i should ask my brothers to call each other bastard or jerk??? hahahaha.. we go play pool.. so long no play my skill like shit sia.. den after tat went zhiwen house play man lat.. tat night pee ann is the most happy one lah.. PEE ANN I WILL BE BACK!! LOLS!

Last last sat went amk KBox with my brothers, cousin and his gf.. we @ there like VIP.. 6 ppl big room, ordered 2 jugs free 3 jugs.. wosh.. lol.. ... ... ... ... ... .. after tat go home sweet home...

Peng's birthday was jus over.. 25th june. went Top One to sing.. too bad pee ann nvr join us as he got army.. sian.. bought him a bag, T-shirt.. He wear it on thatt day.. and oso Kat (peng's gf) finally brought the bag that we bros buy for her de bdae present out.. Top ONe seems not bad can try going there again..

Congrats Jia Yi for ur marriage.. hope u and him hav a blissful marriage.. eh.. u didnt invite me go sia.. if u were reading my blog.. u owe me a treat.. haha.. jkjk.. anyway.. wish u happy ever..

Den oso got meet out my army brothers go chalet.. it was fun.. say wan every 2 mths open chalet.. think i very rich like tat.. but still hope to see ya guys soon.. don chalet liao.. go explore singapore better..

On ard April.. received sms and email ask me go ICT.. hais so sian.. and oso ippt must complete b4 my dae.. how to pass?? fail nid to RT.. where got time.. nid to work earn $$ still nid to bother with such things.. so irritating..

Hmm.. cant rmb much things during this past 6 mths.. for me now work come in 1st. after settled down with my work den maybe go study.. which i plan to do so during army but now haven even started it.. for relationship issue.. think not gg to think abt it.. perhaps.. don wan to be in anymore.. like my seniors and supervisors in my work place.. being a rich bachelor without any worries in life..

looking forward to kevin zhiwen pee ann and my bdae.. although some of us still hav a long way..
and pee ann now in spec course liao sia.. wish u everything smooth smooth inside.. same to zhi wen kevin and peng.. wish ya soon soon li li..
Will updates more often if i have the time..

Gonna end here.. as tmr got work.. nid wake up early.. wrkplace near wrk like hell.. wrkplace far so relaxing down there..

good nite..

Jian Wei Ah Di
Signing off..

为什么?

2009-01-09T12:56:00.003+08:00

为什么你要出现在我面前？
为什么她要打电话给我？
为什么要回电给她?
为什么最近老是想着她？
为什么连睡觉都会梦到她？
为什么不能放下她？
为什么老天要对我开这种玩笑？
为什么有了男女关系叫爱情？
为什么要离开？
为什么不爱？
为什么喜欢你？
为什么爱着你？
为什么你要隐身逃避我？
为什么用于思念？
为什么沉默不语？
为什么我有时候幻想她会回来我身边？
为什么心会撕裂般疼痛？
为什么不理我？
为什么我不能替她分担?
为什么爱让我遍体鳞伤?
为什么爱让我通彻光芒?
为什么爱让我哀伤歌唱?
为什么逃离?
为什么迷茫?
为什么挣扎?
为什么希望?
为什么我爱的人他不爱我?
为什么爱上你我把什么都忘了?
为什么依然恋恋不舍?
为什么不能和自己喜欢的人在一起?
为什么我和她在一起的时候我没有真惜?
为什么来到我的身旁?
为什么使我泪流满面?
为什么因爱而生?
为什么因爱成恨?
为什么我们就不能转过身来?
为什么每次刚下决定. 心里便立即传来否定?
为什么恋恋不忘?
为什么一切都已过去?
为什么对你好?
为什么还要留下?
为什么我爱你这么陶醉?
为什么偏偏是你?
为什么身边没有你我的心如此忧郁?
为什么锁不住爱和忧伤?
为什么会爱上一个人?
为什么会爱上一个不应该爱的人?
为什么就算我失去记忆，你都默默守护我?
为什么不把心里的恋情向她公开?
为什么你一直拒绝我?
为什么那不能是永远?
为什么爱总是有那么多为什么?
为什么???

Year End Post! Wahaha!!

2008-12-28T22:19:00.003+08:00

First,

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2009 to Everyone..

Celebrated Christmas with my sis and her frens and her frens hse. wad can i say is.. a very warming Christmas. 1st time having Christmas by sitting down together to hav dinner and drinking of wine while listening to x'mas songs.. lol..

2nd,

Will be working during new year eve and new year.. still not yet planning whr to go.. sian.. kinda boring..

3rd,

Wont be blogging tat often.. cos of work work work!! WTH!! I and Her was already a FULL STOP after 2 reject. hais. I decided to put relationship aside . As i was very tired. though my mum had been nagging abt me of gf/wife/family/grandchild. but i now onli 22 yo.. i so young nia.. den start to nag all this! haven even stable down my job and income.. I will be working all the way.. hopefully nx year 2009 this crisis from bad can become better den let me leave tat stupid company and work for a better company!!

Last,

Will go M.I.A Missing in Action very very soon!! Cos i had been tired for too many things liao.. Maybe after CNY den i start to MIA.
IF anything BIG/SERIOUS/EMERGENCY/URGENT cases den call or sms me.
so see ya guys..

Take Cares all my brothers and frens..

CHEERS!!

jian wei Signing off..

M.I.A loading in progress!

Pee Ann de bdae!!!

2008-12-21T14:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was pee ann de bday.. weee...

went to cine and hav our dinner over at long john.. as to wait for the rest to come.. singapore was so small tat we saw sir kiat, jie wen and lih wee.. and we sat down and chit chat all along.. they now in ns.. so glad tat i ord lor.. haha.. after tat they left liao den we headed down to lucky plaza to play the token machine.. again and again no matter how many times we say to ourselves not to play tat machine but in the end we still played.. hais.. after tat we went down to DBL O.. it was a havoc nite.. the party haven even started and we went home le.. why??? cos we drink too much once we reached there.. Its was all the Tequilla Pop and Shot power!! Lols... BUT overall we were all enjoying ourselves.. we were happy..
so
Happy birthday Pee ann.. may u stay cool.. hip hop.. and cheerful always.. =D
Let the tequilla pop and shot power washed away all ur sadness!! LoLs...

interesting post i found in my cousin friendster!! LOLS!!

2008-12-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Fucker...
You are my fuckin friend...
And I hope u know thats fuckin true...
No matter what the fuck happens...
I will stand the fuck by u...
I will fuckin be there for u...
When ever the fuck u need me...
To lend a fuckin hand....
To do a fuckin good deed...
So fuckin call on me....
Whenever the fuck u need me...
Fuck, i will always be there...
Even to the bitter fuckin end...
Send this fucking promise to all your fuckin friends to show your fuckin friendship and watch who fuckin Sends it back to u...and if they dont send it back.... FUCK THEM!!!!!!

F.U.C.K STANDS FOR

(F)RIEND
(U)YOU
(C)AN
(K)EEP

Frens out there u can try copy and send it to ur frens.. haha..
Although in the passage contains a lot of "FUCK" but as u read it down its quite meaningful.. wahaha..

Ah di =D
signing off

15th dec

2008-12-15T19:44:00.003+08:00

Finally 3 days of work is over.. had been wasting 36 hours of my life slping in company.. slp and get pay!! Wahaha.. LoLs.. This week jus onli got to work one day.. shiok.. this week is to let me go play and relax myself.. cos nx week hav to work for 5 days.. SIAN~ Looking forward to pee ann bdae celebration and Year 2009.. =D

today went out with jia yi to bugis.. we had a chat.. nice chatting with her.. long time no see her le.. we still got alot to catch up.. meet up soon.. Actually wanted to hav dinner with her.. but she got something on.. Now at home eat instant noodles alone.. sad.. hais.. ;(

2 more days is a sad day for me.. 17th Dec.. its a day with many happy and sad memories.. and yet i nid to go work.. sian sian sian..

ah di signing off ~

9th Dec

2008-12-09T17:34:00.003+08:00

Today is my birthday.. YeaH!!

A Lots of frens wish me bday wishes thru email and sms.. today actual no go out.. feel like staying @ home.

Got many wishes to make.. lols..
but most important is i wish tat
My Family
My Brothers{Peng, Kevin, Calvin, Eric}
And all my frens

A ever smooth sailing in your life and tremendous luck too!

Nx Bday will be Calvin.. We will be going down to DBL O to celebrate. Weee....
After the celebration will be updated in here. =D

Coming up After Tat is Christmas and Comin of the New Year 2009!!

So fast coming to end of 2008.

Had been thinking a lots lately.. Decided today to put everything, all the bad experience, bad memories behind me and strike forward. Although it will be hard but i sure i can do it. Now is to find a stable job earn loads of $$ den slowly wait for my princess to appear... and oso had been thinking of someone recently. Dono why think of this someone, this someone jus flash in my mind whenever i close my eyes. Lols.. But i wont write much of this someone here cos if i say more write more. The whole world will know who she is.. hahaha.. must be secretive abit.. Till one day i found the answer of why keep thinking of her den i will tell everyone.. haha.. so STAY TUNED!! Wahahaha..(To Be Continue...)

Lastly wont be blogging frequently cos don hav the time to blog when working 12 hours shift.

Jian Wei ^ Ah Di ^ 小熊
Signing off~

Interesting Quotes i found.. LoLs!!

2008-12-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

my bday present and those days..

2008-12-08T21:36:00.004+08:00

Thanks all my brothers and sixing for my presents.. MP4!! LoLs.. this few days had been coming out with zhiwen, pee ann and kevin.. jus too bad tat peng cant join me.. so sian.. but still enjoy all these days.. hais.. dono wad to write as this few days too much things happen.. so i'll end it here..

祝我生日快乐！
健伟。。

My advance bday celebration

2008-12-07T14:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my bday celebration.. went HMV Shokudo to eat Japanese food with pee ann and zhiwen.. the food there were very nice.. especially the prawn tako yaki!! den we meet sixing.. we went far east plaza den lucky plaza.. at lucky plaza. we play the token machine to win tickets.. i myself spent 50$ in there.. Wth.. jus to win the soft toy.. lols den later in the night we meet jia yi and hui ling and kevin go boat quay to drink.. we went temptation.. we open one bottle there.. i drink quite a lot til now i wake up still giddy.. jia yi still look the same as b4.. still as cute as b4.. but too bad she attached le..
yesterday on the way home.. i sms sixing to tell her my feelings for her.. but i kanna rejected.. SOo sad.. it all my wishful thinking part.. but hope tat we r still fren and can come out like before.. after all it was an enjoyable day.. thanks everyone for coming.. and thanks for the cake..

Today feeling kinda moody.. maybe is yesterday kanna rejected.. yesterday when going home den know tat kanna rejected i still go to 7-11 to buy 5 cans of beer to drink.. luckily tat 7-11 counter staff is i know de if not i wont be able to buy at such hours.. yesterday was just a bad day for my 2 brothers and me.. maybe my bday is a bad day. hais..

I think i nid time to adjust liao.. so sian today.. i think i go slp whole day.. wont think so much..

jian wei
signing off
:''(

After Days of Hard Work....So tiring!

2008-12-06T12:38:00.002+08:00

Finally is off day liao.. After 3 days of 12 hours work. it soooo tiring.. yesterday work was the most slacking.. start work @ 8.30am den play monopoly til 1 pm den lunch 2 pm come back.. slp for 4 hours den break again til 7.. den slack awhile more den go home.. soo slack !! wahaha.. now sian.. nid to find new job cos company like wan closed down le.. today gg orchard to celebrate my advance bday.. meet zhi wen, pee ann and kah yi and frens.. too bad peng cant come out.. kevin doo wad time book out oso.. hope today outing be a successful de.. hope can have fun..

Ah di
signing off

PLaying with Photo Funia.. LOLS!!!

2008-12-03T22:16:00.004+08:00

Me myself and this blog

2008-12-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone..

This is my very 1st time to blog. And oso will be blogging in future when i have the time. Now oso dono wad to blog abt. So jus say something more abt me bah.. LOLs!!

More abt myself

Just an ....
Extraordinary
Cheerful
Day dreaming
Happy - go - lucky person!

Hav 4 brothers in my life.. they r all my 10 yrs frens.. From strangers, den classmates/schoolmates, den frens, den become best frens, til now 10yrs liao.. we became brothers.. We shared all our happiness and unhappiness together. We cared for one another til like one BIG family.. LOL.. Let me introduce them from the Oldest although we r the same age..hahas..
Proudly introduce My 10 yrs Brothers n they are:

Chee Peng^Vinz(The Cute Chipmunk and Coolest guy )
Kevin (The American Born Chinese and Sporty guy )
Zhi Wen^Eric ( The Clever and Handsome guy )
Pee Ann^Calvin ( The Coolest and Hip-hop guy )

They r my very best brothers. Want to tell them.. Thanks A Lots Brothers. U were ALWAYS there when i was lost.. Always there when i was alone.. Always there when i was happy<> THANKS SO MUCH!!

Next is my 2 yrs NS Life..

Jus ORD-ed 6 mths ago.. Spent 3 mths in Bmt.. den the rest in Chong pang camp (air force) 160 SQN (AA Guns unit) as driver. Happy tat can get my class 3 license in NS onli 50$ to get it..no nid go outside waste $$ to get..wahahaha.. Make many real good buddies inside.. they r joel(blood), jarryl, shui long, tshin, alan, cheng lye, alex, lex, ferdinand, bai chen, chai pheng.. We went out field tgt.. smoke tgt.. do maintenance and servicing of vehicle(land rovers, 1.5 ton,3 ton and our monster 5 tons STEYR trucks tat can go beyond 50km/h on the road, can reach 120km/h) tgt.. play poker ( cash online) inside my bunk tgt.. play eat slp tgt and many many more... hahas.. miss all those days sia... after ord we oso organise chalet.. so happy tat can get tgt again.. talk cock ard.. play ard.. lol.. say wan to organise chalet once every 3 mth.. but no one is free,, study ones go study.. working ones go working.. lookin forward to see them again.... We r the Team STEYR !!

Next is my R/S

Been thru 4 r/s and none of them is successful.. the longest is onli 3 yrs.. and tat was the last one.. the girl i love so much run with another guy. tat was during ns time.. hais..maybe this is the retribution for me cos for the 1st 3 r/s tat i didnt know how to cherish them.. last time had been working alot cos of family financial prob and oso some probs i facing when i was young so there isn't time for me to go acc my exs.. now think back was very regret.. wanted to tell them sry tat i cant be there when they nid me but oso no use.. last time still thinking wan to go to one of them cos still hav feeling for her.. but they wont be back for me again.. but still glad tat they still regard me as a fren though i made them sad last time.. after tat i say to myself.. if i start a new one.. i will cherish her.. spend every moments with her.. care for her.. be there for her.. but now is tat got a girl i like but don hav the courage to tell her.. even i got the courage i dono wad is stopping me.. been thinking abt these lately.. hais.. if there a 忘情水。。 i think i sure go buy de.. no nid think so much.. but still wanted to tell her my feelings even i know i don hav much chance to be with her. relationship de thing is hais hais hais..

Next is my Work/Study

Now working as Process Technician @ somewhr ard woodlands.. a F*** up management company.. decide to change job after the crisis.. cos cant tahan the upper mananage ppl there.. from a 8 hr shift change to 12 hr shift.. wth.. benefit like f***.. but one good benefit is tat can slp play psp when nth to do.. plan to go study.. but nid earn $$ 1st.. hais in this world is $$$$... no $$ will die.. so sianzz...

LASTLY

My Bdae coming soon 9th dec.. planning to celebrate at 6th dec.. but it seem tat everytime i celebrate my bdae i like thinking of many many things.. cos one yr older liao.. hahas.. hope nx yr everything go smoothly in my r/s, work and everything.. NOV and DEC is the most poorest of me.. cos most fren at those month bdaes.. den hav to spend alots. this yr my brothers buying something i like for me but i have think of any.. hais.. my 1st ex give me a wallet as present for my 17th bdae den 18th bdae forget who i spend which liao.. i think was my ite fren den 19th bdae my 4th ex open a BBQ for my bdae den 20th bdae i think i nvr celebrate.. my 21st bdae my brothers celebrate with me den now this yr 22nd bdae hais.. dono how will it be.. will update in here lols but actually if they all free can come out acc me i very happy liao..
now so late liao.. later still have to go work.. sian...

Jian Wei aka Ah Di
signing off ~